Sunday, May 30, 2010
yayyyy!
1 more day to batammmm. still have yet to pack or change cash.. but err. will do it tomorrow.
also, finally managed to watch eric khoo's My Magic that day. was an ermm.. very painful movie to watch. not in a bad way, just that it was well.. painful (also because i was sobbing for like half of the movie. fail.) but overall it was pretty awesome. anyway, returned that and borrowed Be With Me. something to fill up my spare time and also im pretty curious as to why ky likes it so much. lolll
okayyyy shall go watch it now n then head to beddd. effin sleepy. catcha after batammmm (:
brin bit this at ; 12:29 AM
Thursday, May 27, 2010
am fed up. just because you're grumpy and stuff doesnt mean you have to take it out on innocent parties (in this case - yours truly). sigh. but out of respect, i'll behave as i should. i know my place.
and i hate it when people piss me off, and then expect me to be alright with it at the next moment and all happy and shit. whatever. i'll be patient but further use of me as a punching bag of sorts will not result in anything pleasant. i know you're going through shit but so is everyone else so please keep that in mind the next time you intend to blow up at me for something i obviously have had nothing to do with. sigh.
i'm not as wonderful as you intended me to be. and i've made a lot of mistakes in my life, a lot of which i'd undo if i could, but these mistakes have made me who i am today. everyone screws up, but if you keep constantly reminding me of them, i'm never going to be able to move past them properly. and stop with the comparisons and the exaggerations. i have my vices, you have yours. if we're not entitled to them once in a while, it's gonna drive us all insane. so give me some space and let me breathe a little.
i'm trying. and it's always gonna be shit. but please know that i'm trying. with everything on my plate, the least you could do is give me some credit for that.
brin bit this at ; 3:50 PM
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
i guess it'll just go on and on forever and i'll deal with it the same way i have always dealt with it.
pretending it isn't there.
yawn.
brin bit this at ; 3:35 AM
Friday, May 14, 2010
Random late night scribblings. Again, no, this is not reflective of my state of mind or current situation in life. lol. "I just have a lot of feelings!"... and hormones. lolllll. kidding. whatever. -brin.
Untitled - 14/5/10.
Today I have decided to be selfish. Today I will label myself flirt pervert stalker filth on legs, etc. Today I will cleanse you with mud from pavements like a child, while holding you like a parent should.
Because today I will have you.
I've decided playing saint is all good and wholesome but today I have had enough. I will not stop until you sit next to me. I will not breathe easy until I smell you off my skin. Until your hands are on my face. Until we move as one. Shaming art, shaming beauty, ceasing to blush because we know. Creating madness out of a rose garden. You will breathe my words back at me and I, in greed will give you everything. I calculate equations on your chest, and your legs as they move near will read philosophy and breed prodigies. I feel now I think too much. So I will think less.
I must have you.
I must have you and forget myself. My name is yours, and yours is yours and you, my darling, you forever will live on. You, everything, the world is in awe and the best thing about it is that you know nothing of it. For all my mistakes, half-takes and stakes I hid under my bed, I feel you will redeem them all. You must love me. It is unavoidable. Your shoes will walk to me before your feet comprehend movement. You will hide in my hands, waltzing on my palm. I shake you, and with my fingers you now dance the pasa doble. You tease me but I let it go. I do this because I love you and know now no dictionary in the world can make this clearer. Like this, love ceases to be and so do I. So let me live in you for it is beautiful, this ugly thing I do.
brin bit this at ; 12:20 AM
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
God bless Absinthe.
best shit ever omg. awesomeawesome. feel quite pleased with myself that i have finally tried it. i'm going to invest in the whole set - absinthe cup, spoon, etcetc. not that i intend to drink up everything myself, but i can invite guests over and have a little absinthe party! heehee. i'm not even sure why i like it so much. maybe because its aniseed-y and well.. green. lol. i fail.
anyway, realised the discussion rooms at the library aren't open during the holidays. wth. gonna need to decide on another venue now. murderous. also, my stomach is dying and i have yet to prep up material for tuition later. shall just err, go lie down and try to recall a couple of short stories i did in secondary school. really need to head to bras basah soon to go pick up some unseen prose stuff but the Popular there closes super early. (as my friends and i realised yesterday when we actually went there to find all the shutters closed. groan.)
anyho, am off for an afternoon nap. seeyaa.
brin bit this at ; 3:40 PM
Friday, May 7, 2010
some people need to stop being so damn self-centered. seriously. they need to realise that there's actually a world out there, outside the comforts of their own freakin bubble. whatever.
brin bit this at ; 8:57 PM
Wednesday, May 5, 2010
arghghgghh.
can't stand this bloody stye. am this close to just going back to the doctor and asking him to burst it like right now. it is now covering 3/4 of my eye and has turned RED. argh. damn mafan. am so bloody grumpy due to the heat and cramps and everything! #$*#&@(#
yawn. need to get out of the house. even if its just for a while. maybe i'll go take a short walk or something. but the weather.. murderoussss.
on the bright side, spent yesterday reading my old palmistry books. realised that in india people can actually get a degree in palmistry! lol. how cool is that. but for now, i'll just deceive myself into believing i'm slowly learning a new skill of some sort.. err. the chinese and indian palmistry thing is a little tough to get used to. what with all the names and stuff to remember, so for now, ill just stick to reading up on the western things. pretty interesting actually.
anyway, the com club is finally beginning to flesh out nicely. just that red tape needs to be settled and i can't because i'm waiting for a reply from a key person right now. sooo.. yeah. will work on other things for now, and hopefully have the first meeting out really, really soon.
alriteyy. taa for nowww.
brin bit this at ; 11:05 AM
Monday, May 3, 2010
OMG SORE EYEEE.
woke up this morning and i couldn't open my eye. don't even know why. and no, i've not been watching lewd videos, etc. lolll. what really sucks is that its my good eye. which means tht i am close to blind unless i go really near to look at things. not really sure how i managed to cook dinner today. probably not a good idea to handle a knife/sharp objects at the moment. loll
alritey, gonna have an early night, and then bright up and early and hopefully get some writing done or something. tirraaa
brin bit this at ; 11:14 PM