Saturday, October 31, 2009
yay for rain!
excellent cold weather. am all snuggled up at home in my PJ's and fluffy slippers with a cup of coffee next to me. harbour enticing urge to curl up in a ball and fall asleep. but no, no, must finish essay by tonight so i've got tomorrow to work on my presentations.
happy halloween, by the way. not too sure what's so happy about it, but well, candy is never a bad thing. if only there was trick or treating in singapore though. i'd just have to walk up/down 16 storeys of my flat and i should return with a shitload of candy. or maybe i'll just return with a few pieces of bah kwa and an apple or something. ah well. shouldn't be one to complain considering the only candy i seem to have at this moment is my packet of fisherman's friend. don't think the kids would be too happy if i gave them a lozenge each. oh wait, i have strepsils too. nevermind. maybe they'll accept cherry flavoured panadol as well. hmm.
also, i think i've managed to buy out the entire supply of nescafe coffee cans at the vending machine near my house. terrible. too much caffeine is bad, and i do recall once singing some kind of song in primary school regarding the dangers of caffeine. hmm. coffee cannon or something like that. don't know why i seem to remember lots of irrelevant stuff. ah well, okay back to work! lovenspanksss.
brin bit this at ; 8:48 PM
fail fail faillllll.
1.26am. spent the last half an hour looking for the insect repellent spray. couldn't find it, chased annoying bug around the living room with roll of toilet paper instead. collected bug gently, tossed out of the window. waited 5 minutes, nothing. 2 minutes later bug came back zooming in with scary vengeance. re-scooped bug again, felt evil and guilty but bug was annoying me. hurh.
1.29am. blogging about a stupid bug instead of doing my postcolonial/postmodern essay. grr.
nevermind, will finish essay by tomorrow night, am sure of it. mustmustmust stop wasting time, no matter how enjoyable wasting time may be. anyway, headed to school today quite early, dozed off on the lrt, dozed off on the mrt, dozed off on the bus, dozed off in the library (whilst staring fixatedly at a bookshelf). was effin tired, but when i finally got home to have a nap, i couldn't get to sleep. humbug. also, think i freaked rachel out a bit today with my random blabber and incoherent noises on the way home (in attempt to keep awake). sigh, am really looking forward to the holidaysssss. will aim to maintain a healthy balance between, running/exercising, drinking/partying, writing/reading and doing nothing. excellent plan as usual. okay am sleepy. niteyniteeee.
brin bit this at ; 1:48 AM
Thursday, October 29, 2009
pseudo hoorah!
am loitering around the blocks now as i always do. but alas, i've finally managed to come up with a somewhat workable essay plan for my Marquez essay! yay. temporary joy until I actually start writing it tonight and then we'll see how workable the plan actually is. argh.
am contemplating going home to take an afternoon nap but realised that once again i've had one cup of hot coffee in the morning and 2 cans of coffee in the afternoon so probably not very advisable. headed to the library to return some overdue books in the morning. a bunch of people were queue-ing outside. strange, dont know why theres a need to queue to get into the library. not like the books are gonna run away or something. upon witnessing this strange occurence, i realised that maybe i should join them (i am a literature student, so if there's anyone rushing in for books, it probably should be me. hurhurhur. you know, the whole sense of urgency thing. LOLLL okay nevermind.) so i stood amongst these people for a while, mainly out of curiousity and most of the mumblings were regarding some kind of breakfast offer they were having at the cafe inside. hurh.
later felt that having breakfast at the library would be quite a depressing experience considering the constant reminder of unread books dangling over my head would plague me over my plate of sausages or god-knows-what food they were serving. also realised i had to use the loo so left said strange gathering.
anyway, i've decided that once the sem ends (there's that magic phrase again), í will conduct an experiment and join in whatever crowds/queues i see on the street etc. i bet half the people won't even know what they've gathered for. LOLLL. ah well.
sadsad. today he signed off as per normal, sans slightly informal use of first name. am obsessed and probably a pervert, but no matter. nothing new. heh heh.
okay, my batt's dying. some idiot just threw some rubbish out the window from upstairs. bloody idiots and their killer litter. okay, probably can't get killed by a tissue paper, but what if its one with phlegm or something bacterial like or something. grrr. nevermind. laptop batt at 14%, more complaining later. why are you wasting your time reading this aye? loll. taaaaa
brin bit this at ; 3:34 PM
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
fail to the maxxxxx.
things i've accomplished today:
1. managed to strain a butt muscle from sleeping (again.)
2. realised i'd succeeded in losing the minutes from the last CNM meeting.
3. ransacked my entire room in search for abovementioned documents for hours.
4. gave up and began searching for other documents, only to realise the minutes were written on the back of my CNM articles (which was stored in my file - located in plain sight in the hall)
5. got my eyes stung while squeezing oranges for my citrus pork roast.
6. tried taking an afternoon nap. but failed miserably because i was thinking constantly about my upcoming presentations. (felt quite proud of myself for being so concerned about schoolwork, then realised that maybe i couldn't get to sleep because i'd drunk too much coffee in the morning.)
7. un-jammed the "L" key on my laptop. (realise i've been overusing the L key in words such as "lollllllll")
8. grinned sheepishly to myself for an hour.
9. felt sheepish that i was grinning sheepishly.
10. grinned sheepishly at that thought too.
11. successfully managed to gross out my friends yet again (unintentionally, of course) with stories of charming rakes disguised as old, wrinkly men.
groan. massive massive fail. will start work now. MUST START WORK NOWWWWW. arghghhghghghhhh
brin bit this at ; 10:22 PM
dead tired but too lazy to start moving to the bedroom. lol. after ky and xy's influence, i've been trying out tumblr. (see failed attempt at lbjtooktheirt.tumblr.com LOLLLL) apparently the html's modifiable but it's probably gonna take me some time to change all the blogger based tags on this theme. shall check it out after im done with all these essays. major groan.
alas, finally managed to write something (refer to post below). not much but am so lazy lahh. am a sluggish lazy deadweight of an nus student. terrible. will embark on my running routine again once this crazy sem is over. grumble.
brin bit this at ; 2:04 AM
when you die
when you die
i count you sideways
squint my eyes
so there are more of you's
see you sleep
see you see me sleep
in sleep
i stick cigarettes in your mouth
how many can i fit in
before you wake
and curse and kiss me
brin bit this at ; 12:37 AM
Sunday, October 25, 2009
I'm going to screw the dumbass who came up with the whole, when life gives you lemons make lemonade thing. It's fine if life gives you lemons because lemons are edible (despite being hella sour) and you can just place them in your pocket and forget about them or chuck them somewhere. But what the hell are you supposed to do when life gives you shit half the time aye? Make shit juice?
You could chuck it away somewhere, but it's probably gonna come back to bite you in the ass because if you chuck it anywhere other than the toilet, NEA is gonna come after you, or someone else has to basically clean your shit. Im speaking hypothetically. Because shit is a better metaphor for problems as opposed to lemons. And that bloody guy who came up with that analogy should stop eating so many skittles.
Sometimes I wonder why I even bother trying to find a proper toilet all my life.
Hold on.
brin bit this at ; 3:35 PM
Friday, October 23, 2009
oh joy.
don't you love the feeling where you know you can afford to waste time lying around in bed in the morning, but dont want to because you've had the most perfect sleep already? and don't you love the feeling when you know you've had one of the most excellent dreams ever because you wake up smiling to yourself, but you can't remember any of it? (yes, it is a good thing if you can't remember them, because then you won't waste your time trying to make sense out of it. lol.)
excellent stuff. i think i just slept for like 12 hours straight. amazing. i love sleep. lolll. school at 2 later. gonna be up til 10, but hopefully i can squeeze in some work in between lessons. hell weeks ahead.
also, random thought, why do people love arguing about stupid things? i think we've arrived at a sad point of time in the history of the world where there's a need for people to justify every little thing they do. it's like you walk down the street and stop to pick your nose (no i dont pick my nose in public, this is just an example. lolll) , and then some idiot asks you "hey why are you picking your nose in public?" and then you reply, "err because it was itchy?" durhh.
that's the problem with all these idiots who think that with every single action there's some complex explanation behind it. sometimes, when you gotta pick your nose, you just gotta pick your nose? know what i mean?
p.s. if you're one of the idiots who just spent 5 minutes considering why the example i just provided was an inadequate one for the point i was illustrating, then you should really just... go trip over something. (sorry, restrained myself from saying anything worse.)
brin bit this at ; 11:54 AM
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
5 minutes til i go get ready for school and rush off. groan.
think patke is returning scripts today. this either means - i get sad and then go home and study for my cnm exam on thurs, or, i get happy and go home and study for my cnm exam on thurs. LOL. terrible. veryveryvery groggy and tired. need to start sleeping at a nice, healthy time again, instead of the wee hours of the morning. the overdose of coffee has prevented me from doing so, but coffee is essential when you've got to stay up to finish up proposals and other crap.
am sad. oregon has somehow sent half of my application package to somewhere else in singapore and i probably wont receive the new one until 2 months later. its probably fate telling me that i've got to stay in this country a little while longer and pull up my bloody CAP. terrible. hell weeks approaching. 4 more weeks and then i can relaxxxx and bask in the futility of doing nothing at all. and write, and drink and be merry (christmas season what.) and get my new handphone (hurhur) life is not that bad afterall. (see rach, being optimistic does help okay.) i'll just survive on coffee, long showers and cross my fingers and hope for the best.
aye, good plan.
taa!
brin bit this at ; 10:02 AM
Sunday, October 18, 2009
oh boy.
and so the moping around like the grinch continued today. spent the day skulking around the house, blowing my nose, worrying about my film essay, chanting "murder me" at random intervals and rolling my eyes at my bro who attempted to jab me with my sharp-ended comb (ever the helpful sibling). hmph. guess my attempt at natural healing has failed once again. but i was too stubborn to take my medicine for fear that i'd get all drowsy. perhaps should attempt meditation. hmm.
missed out on gerri's bday party. ): felt really bad cz i'd promised her n maria. boooo. ah well. probably my fault since í haven't been taking care of myself as much as i should have. i can think of various things i probably should have avoided yesterday. oh well, regretting never did anyone good. and anyway, that chocolate cake/ice cream xy got was damn awesome lahh mmmmm. heehee
so anyway, decided to make good use of my time resting at home by attempting to comb thru my dad's dvds etc while lying on the bed. eventually realised it was a stupid idea because the dust kept flying all around. terrible. also discovered certain rare dvd's i didnt know my dad had. awesome stuff. had to resist the urge to watch them and focus on finding a film or 2 for my essay. LOLL.
also, to my shock and horror i realised that UO has sent the housing application forms to the wrong address! am totally effed if i dont somehow get them back soon (provided i am still going on exchange. terrible.) if i do go, i'll probably be homeless and stay with friends or just live in the forest and get eaten by a bear. hurh.
shittttt. am very worried about my film essay. this morning i was qutie certain i had a good essay topic. and hours later i realised the essay is only 5 pages long double spaced! massive fail. can't construct said amazing thesis and research in 5 pages. impending doom. if all else fails, i shall rely on freud and psychoanalyse something. anything. even harry potter. hmm. maybe i should psychoanalyse harry potter... okay nevermind, but before i graduate, i must, must, must write at least 1 essay about harry potter. was kinda thinking about using it for postcol/postmo class. lolll. ah well.
okayy back to work. or might just head to sleep. going to take some meds and hope that i can manufacture a miracle tomorrow. tirra.
brin bit this at ; 12:17 AM
Thursday, October 15, 2009
grr. cannot figure out how to add comments to this damn layout. ah whatever. if you have comments just hold it in until i see you. and if they're bad comments, then err... just hold it in. loll.
alritey, back to studying for forensics tomorrow. have devised an awesome way of remembering my notes. heh heh. everytime i reach a new topic, i imagine a particular detective/csi reading the notes out to me.
eg: that guy fom The Mentalist for the arson chapter, grissom for the chapter about bugs, and that creepy coroner woman from CSI Miami who either got murdered/went to find her son and left the show (i forgot which, or probably missed the episode.) for the chapter on coroners. loll
and i am such a terrible chicken shit. i was up late last night attempting to study. got some cnm stuff done, but when i decided to touch my forensic notes i was quite creeped out by some gory photos. and the stupid cicak in my kitchen kept making noises at weird times and scaring the crap out of me. must remember to buy cicak traps soon. terrible.
am still groggy and feel quite annoyed and yet quite pleased with myself for taking 3 days off school this week. (okay, just 2, since i'm off on wednesdays anyway) although i did miss mr whimsy's lectures, at least i managed to get some much needed shuteye on tuesday afternoon. ah well.
i realise my blog keyboard is still configured to the French keyboard settings. this means i have to type most punctuation marks twice or they won't come out right. would change it back but i forgot how and it's quite cool actually óôìí hahaha see! and i can even make that curly thing on the N's. - ñ hahhaha so cute. hahhahaha okay nevermind.
p.s. mum, if you are reading this, the only reason why i'm blogging is because i'm taking a break from studying really really hard. really! and why are u reading my blog hurh! if you scold me later that would mean you've been spying on me! err.
anyway, how does one pronounce "Eureka"? is it you-ree-kah or is it you-ray-kah? rach n rjv had a good time laughing at me that day when i said the latter. but honeslty, i remember watching that educational kids channel when i was younger (okay, not that young, a couple of years back. err i was bored) and they said you-ray-kah what. hurh. nvm, laugh laugh, one day i will write a book on how to pronounce things properly and then no one will be laughing at my "colonel" or "waffles" anymore! bloody educational channels, bane of my life. grr.
also, i am quite excited about my film essay. i intend to write on some movie alan rickman was in. no, not because of alan rickman (okay yes, partially because of alan rickman) but it's also a really cool movie! also, i think, if i ever do make it to doing my honours year (hurh.) i'd like to write about reality tv. not because it's particularly interesting but because í think i've watched every possible reality tv show of our generation. hmm. okay. not all, but still quite some. not something to be proud of though. LOLL. ah well.
okayokay, back to studying. sigh. early day tomorrow. 10am-10pm. die. will probably concuss quite easily after tmr's paper. lé sigh. (heh heh, sorry just wanted to add in something with the french keyboard. lollll) taaaa
brin bit this at ; 2:51 PM
i am annoyed and angry and tired and sniffly. damn flu. i want to live in a hole. yes, those you find in soil/sand or whatever. not anything else, you filthy perverts.
honestly, sometimes i wonder if people realise that there's more to the world than just themselves. seriously. damnit, i need to go away. just for a while.
brin bit this at ; 12:34 AM
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
HOORAH!
new blog layout at long last. i feel so awesome. although in about 2 minutes, i will once again feel depressed and tired because i'm sick and i have an exam on friday and a million and one things to do. crud. massive fail. ah well.
brin bit this at ; 2:10 PM