Sunday, November 22, 2009
arghghhghghg (again).
sorry, rach just photocopied me my essay. bloody hell, all i can say is - please just read the book! it is really quite awesome, and veryvery different from Marquez magic or Aladdin magic or just magic tricks in general! arghhghghg. terrible. should have just sent him wikipedia links to the books. magic is not homogenous!! grrgrgrgrgrgr. v. v. frustrating. will consider sending him the Philosopher's Stone for Christmas. hurhur. whatever.
nevermind, nevermind. and the mumsie won't be back for a week so who am i going uninhibitedly and uncontrollaby whine to? hmph. okay, am loitering at my hiding place below the blocks again, shall look through NM slides. diane says globalisation is coming out. awesome, shall twist postmodern arguments into media based ones. LOLLLL.
also, there's narnia on tv tonight, and the biggest loser marathon on hallmark. heh heh. but no, do not lose focus, brin. mugmugmug you bloody ninja mugger you. lolll okay, who am i kidding. taa! (:
p.s. will worry about doing honours after next week. xy is making me panic about CAP calculation etc. lol.
brin bit this at ; 11:47 AM
Friday, November 20, 2009
OKAY. enough moping around and complaining and being angry, because all that's resulted in is a very painful right hand. (don't ask)
time to actually get started on work so can ace these bloody exams. nevermind that i've managed to screw up the rest of the modules (groan.), there is still hopeeee. yesyesyes.
okay mugging time. taa.
brin bit this at ; 8:49 PM
arghhhhhhhhhhh
massive massive fail. am in such deep shit trouble panicpanicpanic. okay nevermind. i will just focus and get through next week. yes, just one week more, and then i will try to do some damage control. shitttt.
oh boy i feel like such an idiot.
arhghghghggghghgh. nvmnvm focus, brin, focusss.
brin bit this at ; 11:49 AM
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
loser.
that's all i can say. to think i even bothered giving a shit. you really make me sick. and i hope to hell you're reading this and you understand this is meant for you.
i wish you would grow up, and stop making all of us suffer because of the stupid accumulated and never-ending shit you fuck yourself up with all the bloody time. just because you're in deep shit doesn't mean you have to pull us down with you. so grow up and be responsible and dont say you are, when you know deep down you're really not. don't even delude yourself into thinking what a wonderful person you are and how everyone is so mean and uncaring towards you. well it's hard to care for someone who isn't around half of the time anyway.
i'm tired of being nice to you and defending you for everything, when i know i'm just bullshitting through my teeth. it feels good when i know you're happy for me about my achievements but using me as an excuse just to prove your worth? whatever. yup. thanks a lot. really. thanks for being a freakin pain in the ass everytime i try to do something. priorities right? well stop being a fuckin hypocrite and go think over YOUR priorities before you start debating with me about anything. stop lamenting in your own freaking self pity. boohoo you're life sucks, well, firstly, no one asked you to go fuck it up in the first place. you made a mess, so go clean it up. secondly, dont make your stupid shit problems ours! you can ask us to help you out, yes, and we often do try. but i wasn't born and raised to be a slave and do every single stupid ridiculous shit just because of affiliation! fuck you.
just give me a little more time and i'll go, bring the people i care about with me, and you can go have all the fun you want before you made the biggest mistake of your life, the source of all your problems, and mine too. ass.
brin bit this at ; 1:45 PM
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
omg why oh why did i just down 2 cups of coffee at 2 am in the morning.
feel v. easily amused today. realised listening to mitch hedberg on the train is not a smart thing to do. since it always ends up like im grinning at everyone. hurh. anyway. another week or so and will be done with school! woohoo. after which i will attempt to ressucitate (spelling?) my social life. will also spend an incredibly ridiculous amount of time doing nothing at all. double woohoo.
ooh yea, danny and montana finally got married on csi ny! lolll as you can see, i burnt my sunday watching CSI. must have been feeling guilty about neglecting my forensic science. ah well.
also, realised the mr. tea store at smu has been closed down. sad. no more board games, no more WOICs, no more exotic butter tea (shut up rajeev. lol.) , etc. sigh. boring. i should be sleeping, or doing something useful but i cant remember what's the useful thing i'm supposed to be doing, or why i drank coffee in the first place. i'm sure i had a reason to. nevermind, shall go pop my flu meds and then head to sleep. and possibly some really strong cough mixture to knock me out til afternoon. heh heh.
aighty, off to bed. nitey.
brin bit this at ; 2:31 AM
Saturday, November 14, 2009
hooray,
brin have cookie and no more essays for this sem. great success!
mad rush to school today. slept at 2am, woke up at 5am, completely rewrote the postcopostmo essay due at 5pm. left the house by 3pm, rushed to school just in the nick of time (xy made me panic by calling me and panting over the phone lolll.) hmm, sounds wrong, nevermind. lolllll. still got some work to do before the exam, but im hoping i can finish everything by this weekend.
strangely, everybody seems to be having laptop problems recently. ah, the bane of technology. but then again i am quite thankful for computers since one of my tutors recently didn't mark various paragraphs of my handwritten essay because of my shit handwriting. i have tried to improve it, and honestly i still am trying to, but i have no idea why it's so difficult. should consider going back to kindergarten and learing how to write again. interestingly enough, someone told me that people with messy handwriting usually had problems colouring stuff as a kid. wonder if this is true. i dont remember ever being THAT bad at colouring. hmm maybe the deteriorisation of my handwriting is prob cz im going insane or something. or maybe because its an indication that i should go be a doctor. lolll.nevermind.
anyway, the meds seem to finally be taking affect. miserably rainy day. best time for a longgggg nap. god, i love weekends.
brin bit this at ; 2:24 AM
Monday, November 9, 2009
omg just shut up shut up shut upppppp. really.
you know, like when you're in class or a lecture, and someone says something just for the sake of saying it, and whatever they're saying doesn't really help anyone or make anyone think about anything other than wth-are-you-saying?
yes, that would v. similar to this instance. so shut up. for your sake and mine.
because believe it or not, i really don't give a shit.
i wish i was dr. manhattan on mars right now.
but i'm just sick, groggy, sniffly. sore throat. presentation on tues. shit. oh and 2 out of 10 pgs. die. argh.
brin bit this at ; 12:49 AM
Friday, November 6, 2009
i'm sorry, i just have to post this song here because i've been singing it all day. (and last week too) LOLL. sigh. wasn't Lion King just the best Disney movie ever? god how i wish i had simba. or mufasa. okay well, i mean i wish i had them if i was a lion. unfortunately i'm not, so i can't long for them in THAT way because that would be.. well, wrong. and err gross. hmph. nevermind.
but it's so sweet lahh! sigh. okay am in a very mopey soppysappy mood. boo. essay due in 2 days. major shittttttttttttttt. have not started. PANICCC.
Can You Feel the Love Tonight - Elton John
There's a calm surrender to the rush of day
When the heat of the rolling world can be turned away
An enchanted moment, and it sees me through
It's enough for this restless warrior just to be with you
And can you feel the love tonight
It is where we are
It's enough for this wide-eyed wanderer
That we got this far
And can you feel the love tonight
How it's laid to rest
It's enough to make kings and vagabonds
Believe the very best
There's a time for everyone if they only learn
That the twisting kaleidoscope moves us all in turn
There's a rhyme and reason to the wild outdoors
When the heart of this star-crossed voyager beats in time with yours
brin bit this at ; 10:42 PM
i was bored. omg realise i dont know that many celebs. loll.
The rules:
1. Bold the names of guys you’d definitely shag.
2. Italicize the names of guys you might shag after a little persuasion.
3. Leave the guys who don’t do anything for you alone.
4. Put a question mark after the guys you’ve never heard of.
5. Strike the guys you wouldn’t touch with a ten-foot pole.
01. Stephen Dorff ?
02. Wesley Snipes
03. Denzel Washington
04. Samuel L. Jackson
05. Hayden Christensen
06. Ian Somerhalder?
07. James Van Der Beek
08. Ashton Kutcher
09. Sean William Scott
10. The Rock
11. Brendan Fraser
12. Oded Fehr ?
13. John Hannah ?
14. Hugh Grant
15. Colin Firth
16. Liam Neeson
17. Daniel Day-Lewis
18. Leonardo Di Caprio
19. Billy Zane
20. Harry Connick Jr.
21. Sean Astin
22. Dominic Monaghan?
23. Karl Urban ?
24. Vin Diesel
25. Paul Walker?
26. Joshua Jackson
27. James Marsden
28. Shawn Ashmore ?
29. Hugh Jackman!!!!!!!
30. Will Kemp ?
31. David Wenham ?
32. Viggo Mortensen
33. Elijah Wood
34. Tobey Maguire
35. James Franco?
36. Alfred Molina ?
37. Harrison Ford
38. Sean Connery
39. Shane West
40. Stuart Townsend ?
41. Richard Roxburgh ?
42. Ewan McGregor
43. Jonathan Rhys Meyers
44. Christian Bale
45. Jared Leto
46. Colin Farrell
47. Ben Affleck
48. Josh Hartnett
49. Bruce Willis
50. Billy Bob Thornton
51. Dennis Quaid
52. Jake Gyllenhaal
53. Patrick Swayze (but he's passed away. ): )
54. Keanu Reeves
55. Gary Oldman!!! - oh joyyyyy!
56. Tim Roth?
57. Steve Buscemi
58. Michael Madsen?
59. Rick Yune ?
60. Pierce Brosnan
61. Robert Carlyle ?
62. Jonny Lee Miller ?
63. Jude Law
64. Matt Damon
65. Clive Owen
66. Ryan Phillippe
67. Benicio Del Toro ?
68. Johnny Depp - loll aww its okay xy, can share! LOLLLLLL
69. Orlando Bloom
70. Sean Bean ?
71. Eric Bana
72. Brad Pitt - oh come on, who wouldnt? lol
73. George Clooney
74. Mark Wahlberg
75. Jason Statham?
76. Edward Norton
77. Ben Stiller
70. Owen Wilson
79. Vince Vaughn
80. Joaquin Phoenix
81. Russell Crowe
82. Billy Boyd ?
83. Paul Bettany
84. Heath Ledger
85. Mel Gibson
86. Jason Isaacs ?
87. Alan Rickman!!!! AHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAH SHUTUP EVERYONE THX
88. Kevin Costner
89. Christian Slater
90. Antonio Banderas
91. Tom Cruise
92. Ving Rhames ?
93. John Cusack
94. John Malkovich
95. Charlie Sheen
96. Kiefer Sutherland
97. Emilio Estevez
98. Rob Lowe
99. Matt Dillon
100. Kevin Bacon
101. Adam Brody
102. Andy Serkis ?
103. Alan Cumming ?
104. Josh Groban
105. Sean Biggerstaff
106. Zach Braff
107. Harry Sinclair ?
108. Gerard Butler
109. Marton Csokas ?
110. Jeremy Sumpter ?
111. Sean Patrick Flanery ?
112. Cillian Murphy ?
113. Hugh Dancy?
114. Ioan Gruffudd
115. Mads Mikkelsen ?
116. Enrique Murciano ?
117. Jamie Bamber ?
118. Craig Parker ?
119. Dean Cain ?
120. James Marsters ?
121. David Boreanaz
122. James Spader
123. Kevin Spacey
124. Al Pacino
125. Jim Caviezel?
126. Josh Holloway?
127. Will Smith
128. Matthew McConaughey
129. Patrick Wilson
130. Milo Ventimiglia
131. Jason Dohring ?
132. Brandon Boyd ?
133. Tom Welling?
134. Sean Maher ?
135. Tré Cool?
136. Billie Joe Armstrong?
137. Mike Dirnt ?
138. Adrienne Armstrong?
139. Jason White?
140. Matthew Fox ?
141. Alexander Sarsgaard ?
142. Derek Jeter ?
143. Travis Fimmel ?
144. Michael Vartan
145. Rob Thomas
146. James Purefoy ?
147. Michael Rosenbaum ?
148. Jensen Ackles ?
149. William Fichtner ?
150. Patrick Dempsey
151. Ace Young ?
152. Francis Capra ?
153. Ryan Hansen ?
154. Robert Pattinson
155. William Moseley
156. Ryan Gosling
157. Nicolas Cage
158. Leigh Whannell ?
159. Wentworth Miller
160. Jack Davenport ?
161. Michael J. Fox
162. Kevin Federline
163. Liam Cunningham ?
164. John Barrowman?
165. John Rzeznik ?
166. Sendhil Ramamurthy
167. Stephen Colbert -hurhurhur whattt
168. Jon Stewart
169. Brandon Flowers?
170. Henry Ian Cusick ?
171. John Krasinski ?
172. Michael Trucco ?
173. Benjamin McKenzie
174. Adrian Pasdar
175. Jeremy Piven ?
176. Justin Timberlake
177. Naveen Andrews ?
178. Vincent Cassel ?
179. Adrian Paul ?
180. Gabriel Byrne ?
181. Adrian Grenier ?
182. Daniel Craig
183. Nathan Fillion ?
184. Adam Baldwin
185. Ed Quinn ?
186. Eric Szmanda?
187. George Eads ?
188. Omar Epps ?
189. Jared Padalecki ?
190. Christian Kane ?
191. Jeffrey Dean Morgan
192. Geoffrey Rush
193. Brandon Routh ?
194. Chris Lowell ?
195. James Callis ?
196. Justin Chambers?
197. Michael Muhney ?
198. Matthew Goode
199. Bradley Cooper
200. Burn Gorman ?
201. Christopher Eccleston ?
202. David Tennant
203. Tom Felton
204. Daniel Radcliffe
205. Rupert Grint
206. Kevin McKidd
207. Gaspard Ulliel
208. James McAvoy
209. Anthony Head?
210. James Frain?
211. Ed Speelers ?
212. Penn Badgley ?
213. James Lafferty?
214. Bryan Greenberg ?
215. Chace Crawford ?
216. Joe Jonas
217. Toby Hemingway ?
218. Dane Cook
219. Travis Wall ?
220. Brad Paisley
221. John Mayer
222. Blake Lewis
223. TR Knight
224. Hugh Laurie
225. David Duchovny
226. Damien Rice
227. Ozzy Osbourne
228. Tim Daly?
229. Matthew Rhys
230. Robert Downey Jr.!!!
231. Goran Visnjic ?
232. John Corbett ?
233. Michael Emerson ?
234. David Hewlett ?
235. Robert Knepper ?
236. Nestor Carbonell ?
237. Robert Sean Leonard ?
238. Zach Gilford ?
239. Zachary Levi ?
240. David Sutcliffe ?
241. Christopher Gorham ?
242. Andrew Simpson ?
243. Henry Cavill ?
244. Daniel Vosovic ?
245. John Simm ?
246. Steven Strait
247. Taylor Kitsch ?
248. Lee Pace ?
249. Rufus Wainwright
250. Justin Chatwin?
251. Keith Olbermann?
252. Victor Garber ?
253. Jesse Spencer
254. Paul Gross ? -but then again, with a name like that, maybe not. lol
255. Ty Pennington?
256. Richard Armitage ?
257. Val Kilmer
258. Matt Dallas ?
259. Callum Keith Rennie ?
260. Jamie Bell
261. Joe Flannigan ?
262. Douglas Henshall ?
263. Trent Reznor
264. Jason Mewes ?
265. Matthew Grey Gubler ?
266. Kevin Sorbo - hahahhaa hercules not my thing lahh.
267. Jeremy Irons -whatttt...
268. Garrett Hedlund ?
269. Chris Pine?
270. Jimmy Fallon
271. Ed Westwick ?
269. Alex Pettyfer?
270. Craig Horner ?
271. Gale Harold ?
272. Eli Roth?
273. Zachary Quinto
274. Brendon Urie?
275. Chester Bennington
276. Jim Parsons ?
277. Ralph Fiennes
278. Kevin Connolly?
279. Javier Bardem?
280. B.J. Novak?
281. Steve Carrell
282. Michael Cera?
283. Michael Fassbenger ?
284. Gedeon Burkhard?
285. Til Schweiger?
286. Daniel Bruhl?
287. Neil Patrick Harris?
289. Joseph Fiennes
290. Paul Rudd
291. Ryan Reynolds
292. Malcolm McDowell
293. Sidney Crosby?
294. Michael C. Hall
295. Landon Liboiron?
296. Alex Turner?
297. Jon Mcclure?
298. Derren Brown?
brin bit this at ; 12:56 AM
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
what the bloody hell. LOL. xy got me to do some test at
http://goldinuniverse.com/ and this is what i got. sadly, this may actually be pretty accurate. especially the unncessary stress bit. hahahhaha okay nevermind.
Name: Brintha
Date: 11/4/2009
Colorgenics Number: 26013475
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You are feeling exhausted, worn out, drained. You feel that far too much is being asked of you but you still want to overcome these difficulties and establish yourself despite the effect such an effort seems to have on you. You are a proud person, assertive most of the time, but at this particular moment you are acting as if you have become resigned to the situation. What you need is some tender loving care - a gentle pat on the head (or maybe a 'kick-up-the backside') and then you'll be raring to go.
Recently you have been experiencing considerable mental anguish and turmoil. You are bored and discontent. Nothing seems to be going right for you. Even your relationships aren't working out and you don't quite know which way to turn.
Your confidence has been shattered. There are so many things that you would like to do with your life, so many dreams to be fulfilled - and you know that your hopes and dreams are not just figments of your imagination, they are real and you are looking for reassurance from someone. Basically your fears are such that you may be prevented in attaining your hopes and dreams. Even now you would like to broaden your fields of endeavour but in order to develop your 'inner- self' you need peace and solace. You are distressed by the fear that you may be prevented from attaining your goals. What you really need at this particular moment in time is quiet reassurance from someone close to you to restore your confidence.
You are an emotional, sincere and impressionable individual experiencing frustration and unnecessary stress. You are carried away by other people's enthusiasm and looking for that idealised relationship, be it in a business or personal situation, which you are able to share with a mutual depth of understanding. You have lowered your defences in the past and you have been hurt, so you are now extremely wary of being exploited. You are still ready to trust people on the condition that they are prepared to offer you proof of their sincerity.
You are being very dogmatic, insisting that there is to be absolutely no equivocation whatsoever about your achievements and accomplishments.
brin bit this at ; 9:00 PM
A Box
___________________
i draw you a box and
youinstantlyneedtofillitup
or s h a d e it
or write words which mean
1234567891011121314
things
why
why
why
why
why
____________________
don't you ever just write here.
brin bit this at ; 4:05 AM
arghghhghghhghghghghghhhhhhh
shit shit day today. i hate technology. i wish i lived in a kampung. or just some place i can grow my mushrooms.
mushrooms... o... where is it......
hahhahahhaha sorry, couldn't help it. *coughcough*
so anyway, several things i've learnt today -
1. a pen is to a phallus as is ink to sperm.
2. i would rather prefer dancing around a rock as opposed to attempting to push it.
3. i don't know how to pronounce Melquiades.
4. having your lecturer debate with himself on the content of your essay several times during an actual lecture is not a good thing.
5. office doors are not as soundproof as i thought.
6. leaving one's tutorial because the "air con was too cold" is actually quite a creative excuse. (must remember this for future use in replacement of extended toilet-break during QnA session excuse)
7. when there are only 5 people present in class, one's sniggerings and semi-silent cackles become more obvious.
8. for some reason i find the idea of cocks (as in roosters) jumping up and down extremely funny.
9. operating on a 3 hour sleep system is not effective in any way.
10. someone stole a book on harry potter essays from the library (because i can't find it anywhere!! grrrrr.)
also, i miss Batam. need to get away. or possibly just go for a really long run. might do so tomorrow. aight tired as hell. god i love wednesdays. niteynite.
brin bit this at ; 2:12 AM