Sunday, March 28, 2010
OMGGG bloody south asian project the current bane of my existence.
terrible. why can't i be in the bahamas or in orlando florida at the harry potter theme park or some shit like that. murderrrrrrrr.
okay, nevermind, back to work. need that bloody A+ or will be so thoroughly screwed. GOOOOOO BRIN GOOOOOOO you lazy bum youuuu.
(sorry, 2 cups of coffee and counting and it's only 12pm. groan.)
brin bit this at ; 12:35 PM
Friday, March 26, 2010
In Bed.
Tonight I will kiss your eyes while you sleep,
cover you like bedsheets as you dream.
We will watch time,
just you and I,
you asleep and I -
awake but slowly sleeping
breathing hard catching breath
over and over
til we grow tired and choke.
We will lie forever
here and in words
as I place your fingers over mine.
I will devour you gently,
and you will enjoy it unknowingly.
But then sunlight breaks scratches upon your face
and you will curl into me
like a newborn wailing.
Then in the crook of my neck,
finally you come too close
you smell my fear
in shock,
I retire my cheek against unruly hair,
and this is when we die though still alive.
-brin.
brin bit this at ; 2:30 AM
Thursday, March 25, 2010
i wish you could see yourself through my eyes.
then you'd start to realise what a pain the arse you really are.
brin bit this at ; 12:42 PM
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
coffeeeee
have drunk too much the entire day. as a result, i'm still wide awake at this bloody hour. ssa proj still not done, although on the bright side, have managed to come up with various random crap to talk about for the presentation (in 2 weeks time. wth.) was pretty happy today because i thought there wasn't gonna be tutorial at 10am tmr. apparently i thought wrong, so sooo much for thinking of sleeping in. grrr.
anyway, suddenly remembered this afternoon that i had that Caravaggio movie on my handphone so i attempted to watch the first 2 parts on the train. at the point where the guy was painting some guy's arse this old man sat next to me and attempted to look over at what i was watching. he shot me a filthy look after, probably thought i was watching porn or something. terrible. well no one asked him to be so kaypoh what! sheesh.
arghghgh feel so guilty for not doing workkkk nvm, shall sleep the guilt away. fail.
brin bit this at ; 12:50 AM
Sunday, March 14, 2010
omg.
have been reading Stomp just out of boredom. have said WTH out loud at almost every article in the Ugly Commuters section. seriously. i mean why the heck do these people waste their time with all this rubbish about seats. i mean.. you want to sit down then sit down, if there's no space then ask someone if they could give up theirs. sheesh. most of the time when i'm on the train i just stand because it's so bloody awkward sitting down anywhere, especially the "guilt seats". ít's like everytime i sit on the damn priority seats i have to force myself to stay awake to look out for pregnant women/crippled individuals or senior citizens. might as well just stand up and doze off while holding the handle bars. and when you're sitting there it's like there are watchful eyes everywhere, judging you to see if you look unwell enough, or are possibly sporting a knee injury under your jeans or something. it's like a video game right, where you have to quickly spot the disabled person before someone takes a picture of you sitting down with their phone camera. like if you spot the person in time you get a good score, and if you don't, you'll well.. end up on Stomp or something. i mean just have some basic courtesy lahh. if someone looks like they could use a seat, offer it. i mean, sometimes i feel like i should wear a sign around my neck that says - "i'm just sitting down because im tired, but if you'd like to sit down, please ask." argh.
by the way, just to note, i have been shoved close to 7 times by various aunties upon boarding the train (which is why i hate taking the train in the morning) once, one even pushed at my butt in attempt to enter the train faster. so annoying. i mean if you want to touch, then ask lahh! sheesh. LOLLL just kidding, but honestly wth. and like i don't know why i'm always unlucky enough to get into a compartment where one idiot feels obliged to rest their back against the metal pole in the middle. i'd be like obviously holding the bloody pole and the next thing i know there is a hot sweaty back pressing against my hand. i mean, DOES MY HAND LOOK LIKE PART OF THE BLOODY POLE!! HONESTLY. i told one guy off before and he moved but it's too late! the damage is doneeeee. your sweat is on my handdsssss. arghghghhg. okay sorry, was overcome by a sudden burst of irritation. hurh.
sigh. this is why i need a car. bloody trains and their guilt seats. for once i'd like to just sit down and not feel guilty. or maybe that's just me. yawn. okay im done complaining. just had to get that off my chest because Stomp is annoying me. okay bedtime! NITE
brin bit this at ; 3:24 AM
Saturday, March 13, 2010
2++ am.
feel sleepy but am guilty i have not done work today. also, feel tired to do work because i am sleepy. therefore, i will distract myself from such issues by randomly browsing Tumblr and reposting various pictures i think are amusing. lollll
anyway, was overcome by a sudden need to splurge on something random yesterday so browsed ebay and have purchased a big book of Shakespeare's complete works for like 12 bucks. i love 2nd hand books. i'm not actually sure when i'll read it... but well, once in a while when i'm in the mood for the occassional sonnet or something i guess. and also, it'll look nice on my bookshelf. LOLL. wth nvm. lit student fail.
arghhh i feel like writing something now. it's like there's a bloody idea clogging up the drainage system which i call my "brain". but its not coming out right now. although when it does come out i'm sure it'll be pretty fulfilling. you know like when there's something jamming up the sink or something and you use that plunger thingymajig to get the shit stuff out. and it's so troublesome to like.. plunge things (erm.) but when you finally do get the shit stuff out theres like a weird plopping effect that is very enjoyable. only problem is that the shit stuff smells like.. well.. shit. hmm.
ah well. chances are i will feel like writing the moment i actually start on my essays/presentations, etc. (this is always the case) okay im sleepy and have had my fair share of funny pictures for today. taaaaa
brin bit this at ; 2:55 AM
Sunday, March 7, 2010
zennn.
i am zennnnn today. feel extremely calm and unpanicky browsing random websites in my Christmas themed pyjamas. have just realised next week is week 8, meaning school will end in probably a month or so. argh. am still considering whether or not to do a summer term. or just overload next sem (if i stay). issues issuessss. but whatever.
anyway, the cicaks are on the attack again. bloody hell, this one cicak jumped out at me twice today. wthhh. my brother says i am the cicak queen - seen as the rallying point of all cicaks because apparently they only seem to be bothering me. as such, i shall have no choice but to embark on a thorough extermination campaign consisting of various cicak traps placed at various locations around the house. they are getting smarter because the last time i tried, one cicak just sat right next to the trap and ran away the moment i came near. stupid brilliant evolving cicaks.
bah. feel extremely inspired to start work tomorrow. but this feeling will probably vanish as soon as i wake up and get all groggy and grumpy. okay, it's 3am and i'm donee complaining about the lizards.
p.s. to whoever is following this millionth season of Survivor - OMG YAY GOODBYE CIRIE, HELLO TOMMMM ((((:
brin bit this at ; 3:36 AM
Friday, March 5, 2010
effin sleepy. and yet i find myself watching american idol for 2 hours like the stubborn mule i am.
brin bit this at ; 1:32 AM
Thursday, March 4, 2010
heeheehee.
2 essays done! hooray. initially decided to spend tonight bumming online but i've just wasted 2 hours of my life watching reality tv, which i know is pretty shit, but i still watch it anyway. loll. am missing my partner in crime who i've not seen in ages because shes been down with a fever. (get well soon dudeeee. ((: )
doesn't that smiley look like it's wearing a helmet. hahaha. ok sorry.
anyway, realised the flu bug or whatever the heck it is spreading around. close to 5 people were coughing on the train this morning (just in my compartment alone). crazy. okay, i actually feel bored now that there are no essays to do.. well, at least for this week lahh. also, we saw edwin thumboo today! HAHAHA. apparently he has opened the door to the lit. department (i mean this quite literally, not as a metaphor or anything. lol.) for xy, shalini and jen. complete unfairness obviously. lolll. so we saw him drive past today and i had half the mind to go knock on his car door just so he would open/close it and then i could say that not only did edwin thumboo open the door for me, but he even also closed it! hahahha. omg wtf is wrong with me.
also had a pretty awkward moment in tuition today. loll. in the text we were looking at, there's this scene where one of the characters has sex or something, but isn't explicitly mentioned. all readers are told is that the guy is next seen "having a smoke". i was trying very hard to explain how having a smoke is linked to the having sex bit. so i tried many ways to say this as polite as i possibly could which led to me mumbling something like - "you know right.. like in the movies and stuff.. when like.. you see the guys and girls like do stuff... err, okay, i don't mean you actually see them doing the stuff. but like, you know they've done stuff right, when you see the guy having a smoke afterwards. because he needs to like... calm the nerves..after doing something like.. well... so vigorous." (i think i actually choked on my coffee after i said the last word.)
lolll. eventually i gave up mumbling and decided to just whack and be as crude as possible. i mean, come on, someone needs to educate the kids on these kinda things man! okay he's not a kid, he's 16. but well, whatever. don't worry, i later also advised him against drinking, smoking and doing drugs, drawing on various catchphrases such as "one puff is not enough", "you are hooked for life", "don't drink and drive", "once you start you can't stop" etc hmm actually i think that last one was for a Pringles advertisment. hmmm. nvm. hahha.
okay. i am sleepy and tired and my bed calls. also, got my pay today. yay. taaaa
brin bit this at ; 3:03 AM
Monday, March 1, 2010
omggg.
okay, 1 essay down, another one to go. this is like a never ending day that has been dragging on since thursday-ish consisting of waking up, eating, doing work. yawnnnn. okay. am off to bed for an hour and then shall start work again. BAHHH.
brin bit this at ; 4:23 PM