Tuesday, July 27, 2010
How I Feel Today
- tomorrow can wait.
brin bit this at ; 1:58 AM
Monday, July 26, 2010
ARHGHGHGGHGHHGHGHGHGHHG
it took half an hour to crush my stupid pathetic small flickering light of hope in this darkened tunnel. sigh.
but no matter, guess its time for me to stop living in a bloody tunnel and actually go take a walk down the main road to see what else is going on.
eventho it's daunting as hell, i guess i gotta try. and i suppose rach is right when she says i can't stand change. which is true, but well, i've been dealt this bloody lousy hand of cards so i shall just make do and try to survive. yawn le yawns.
on the brightside, this means i can just heck care all my modules because my CAP doesnt matter anymore. so imma gonna choose some modules i really like and sound vaguely interesting. heh heh. okay, gotta go do some work. seeyaaaa
brin bit this at ; 1:17 PM
Friday, July 23, 2010
yay hiding place!
decided to come here and write, and then remembered that i had some com club stuff to do. so yes, prepping up, had the presentation that day, and hopefully everything else goes smoothly. cors wouldnt let me bid for honours mods, which is okay lahh. so will try to appeal, but if i can't, i've come to a consensus (with myself lol) that i will file for graduation and it wont be that bad after all. and hopefully, if plan b works out, in a couple of years i'll see myself in the states or aust. doing masters. hopefully.
so anyway, i figure i'll have to pick another 2 extra mods, other than the ones i already have, though they wont count for anything else other than my CAP. so, i guess i will just go on a module shopping spree of sorts and FINALLY, i will be able to do a couple of mods i really like. heh heh.
also, had a series of bad dreams during my afternn nap today. terrible. and also, randomly, very much so, i realise that when everyone else doesn't believe in what you're trying to do with your life, it's the least you could do to believe in yourself. or.. well.. insanity is near. LOL.
okay, my batt's dying out. guess its time to return home. seeyooouuu.
brin bit this at ; 10:06 PM
Monday, July 19, 2010
heehee.
have decided that doing nothing to waste time is boring. therefore, i have moved on to the noble task of doing nothing productive. in other words, this involves me waking up in the morning, going for a walk to clear my thoughts/sleepiness, having coffee, accomplishing various household chores and then relaxing. lol. also i now remember why i stopped reading fanfiction off my handphone at night whilst in complete darkness.. mainly because my eyes are starting to malfunction. but err. nvm. sleeping patterns have remained somewhat irregular despite the end of the world cup season. but no matter, sleep can be attained as and when i like it.
not looking forward to school. feel completely bleh-ish. also, i've realised that the best way to handle unjustifiable arguments is not to remain silent, but to simply state, "if i open my mouth now, i will say something i regret. so i'm going to keep quiet." and then remain silent. hmm. this seems to have been working thus far. very random, but nvm.
also, am still completely stoked about the next harry potter film. and margaret has agreed to be my willing companion on my trip to the universal studios 2011. HEEHEE. a grad trip of sorts, but i will save up!! YES I WILL. SAVESAVESAVEEEEE. much excite!
okay, i gotta go, but before i do i'd like to wish (again) my best buddy Rachel Mo. a happy birthdayyyy!! i know i haven't always been there for you all the time, but i'd like you to know that i'm trying my best and i'll always have your back no matter what. so have an awesome day dude. and if you're reading my blog now, you are probably bored so just give me a ring and we'll go hang out lol. much love and spanks! it pains me that we're growing older every day and things come and go, but at least some good things never change. ((:
okay i gotta go now, and i think there is someone spying at me from the window.... creepy bugger. have just pulled down the blinds. wonderful perks of HDB living. TAA! ((:
brin bit this at ; 11:24 AM
Wednesday, July 7, 2010
Chess.
I don't give a damn
about your game
because I know none of it.
If there's anything I've figured out -
Chess is for old men who
consume pawns and porn
while eating kachang.
No one taught me how to play,
and it doesn't interest me enough to figure it out myself.
You came up with your own rules, regulations, instructions, etc., etc.,
but then told me later that it varies with the type of chess I'm playing.
So don't force my hands
into moving those pieces the way you like -
because I will not.
Don't go round knocking off stray bits of plastic if they've done nothing wrong to you.
Don't tell me I can't move this piece diagonally or horizontally or off the bloody surface,
Don't say no, you can't visit a friend in another box,
no, there is no get out of jail free card.
Just don't,
because you'll either win or lose
to an opponent who is barely present.
But, if you like,
I see there are squares on the board,
so let me get my pencil
and we can play tic tac toe instead.
brin bit this at ; 10:53 AM
so maybe tomorrow.
brin bit this at ; 1:47 AM
Monday, July 5, 2010
phooooeeeyyy. ):
stupid bloody food poisoning or god knows what. horrible horrible. have been moping about the house all day feeling sorry for myself and sick. patheticccc. figure i should do something constructive but have no idea what. what is up with my immunity systemmmm. think its time to start getting healthy and maybe go for a few jabs or something. sobsob.
an sms cheered me up today however, and to said sender, i am very grateful. ((:
sigh, shall go lie down and cheer myself up by re-reading the whole harry potter series again and hopefully fall asleep. and then when i wake up, my mum should be home and we can watch criminal minds on dvd and i will be happy again. lol. i am such a baby. LOLLL.
groan. also, in this state of pessimistic moaning and groaning i realise i miss my friends despite seeing them pretty recently.
arghhghg okok jk rowling here i come. again.
brin bit this at ; 1:57 PM