Tuesday, November 16, 2010
holaa,
realised i have not properly blogged for a while. have been completely tied down with work and stuff. but the exams are coming soon, and finally there's time to breathe freely this week. heh heh. laptop still isn't working, so have borrowed my dad's tiny laptop/netbook whatever you call it. tis absolutely amazing because the battery lasts like forever. 80% battery has lasted 8 hours or so. bloody amazing.
anyway, am at my hiding corner again. just need some time alone. (not that i havent already had enough time alone recently but still...) guess i just need my own space. the film's completed and i guess im pretty satisfied with the product. tho everytime i look back at it and watch it over n over again, i spot so many tiny bits which i could have done better, but ah whatever. harry potter's started playing today and for the first time ever i'm contemplating watching it alone. LOL. okay, i know you're thinking - what the hell its only harry potter. lol but its more than that to me... lol okay nevermind. over-sentimentalising things again ahemm.
got to see my grandma today so i was pretty happy (: showed her the film and everything and got to sit down and chat. but today has not been good for certain reasons as well. sigh. nevermind that.
after many years of living in denial, i think i've come to accept that i do have a huge sense of pride. it's not something im proud of (ooh irony! lol wth) but still.. i cannot stand it when im put up for embarassment, and yeah, things seem minor but i really cant stand it and it really does affect me when shit like that happens. but whatever. i shut up about it. but it still eats at me. so yeahh. and i've been feeling really confused lately. things which shouldn't really be bothering me have been bothering me a whole lot recently. things which i've become accustomed to, and yet just completely piss me off in the last couple of days.
but ah well, life goes on, shit happens, ya da da da da.. lol. AND MY EYE IS STILL PUS-ING! MURDER. (well its the other eye now) so i guess i should stop being so stubborn and just go get it checked asap at TTSH like my doc recommended. am dreading going to a hospital again. have been to hospitals a ridiculous amount of times this year. i think ive basically visited them all except SGH. lol. shall not jinx it now. but hospitals make me feel so out of place and strange, as do airports. loll. maybe just coz of the link with bad memories. lollll whatever.
alritey, off to take a breather and think things through. gonna take things slow tonight and worry about it tomorrow. niteeee, and to all students, good luck for the exams!! (:
brin bit this at ; 9:44 PM
Sunday, November 14, 2010
in case some people have failed to notice, i have a life of my own too that does not revolve around you.
so just bugger off.
brin bit this at ; 11:42 PM