Wednesday, February 2, 2011
crappy poem composed.
but had one line which i just had to get out so i remember to use it in future. argh, have to go to the supermarket again to get stuff. totally not looking forward to queue-ing for an hour and getting squashed by aunties with big shopping trolleys. have to also clean the house as much as possible today because my mum says its pantang to do so tomorrow. yawn.
ah well, on the brightside, this means no housework tomorrow! hoorah. *weak wave of Much Success flag* also... say it with me... FOXCRIMEEEE. YAY
good thing it's CNY, so i can spend time editing my resume and cover letters. completely dislike feeling directionless and useless. (not useless in the emo sense, just useless.) time to get my life back in order i think.
realise unfortunately, that i will never be able to travel to the places i long to visit until probably a couple of years time once i have earned enough moolah... as much as it pains me to say. sigh, nvm. life is such. and i know i shouldn't be mope-ing around and feeling upset about it. just a little bit tiresome thinking about all the wasted opportunities that's been dangled in front of my face time and time again. and there are so many times i think to myself - why didn't i.../i should have../what if i had...
but i stop these thoughts halfway and refuse to look back. i have a lot to be thankful for and that is enough.
things are so uncertain now, it really scares me. and for the first time in my life, i feel like i'm losing control and trying to live my life based on what certain people expect of me. sigh. it sucks, but i'll get through this. i have to.
brin bit this at ; 11:02 AM
